Strength?!

How good it feels to know that loneliness is gone, but for how long? There are times when I wish everything would remain with the same sweet and loving feeling but I know that that can never be. The joy of having and the pain of loosing goes hand in hand. It is sort of like the balance of life. If the pain doesn't kill us, it makes us stronger. We learn and we live by that. Sometimes though the same strength we gain is harmful both to us and to others. I just hope that that is not the type of strength which i have. But how do I know. What might be good for me is not always good for another. But then again, it is all a part of the picture in the frame.

My thoughts

I am so very glad that I got through this semester. It was a different experience but as usual, I adjust. I have spent most of my time reading more books. I have dropped romance novels for a change. Now I'm reading books that have more information towards my major. I realize I should have started a long time ago. It is very interesting!
I am still trying to understand the cruel ways of the world. I always find myself thinking about what people do to me and others that I know. I just don't understand. I want to leave it as is, but how can I be able to live in peace when they will be there? I have learned to ignore people over the past, but even that I can't do anymore. I am thinking that maybe I should go up to them and demand to know where the root of their problem lies. I know they envy me but for what? I would gladly step down form where I am and let them be here to know how it really is and make my existence in a place far away from their prying eyes.
It's the beginning of the holidays and I dread going home. I would feel much better if I didn't have to see certain people but I cannot avoid them. I wonder if I should even go to that reunion. All I want is to spend time with the family, with nothing to spoil it.
In fact, I shouldn't even be thinking about them. They can say whatever they want. The pain of what they say always goes away. They'll never win

Building Bridges

After two years, it felt weird meeting him again yet it felt like nothing ever really happened. The feeling is still there as it has always been. I still don't know what really happened but there will be time for that. For now, I will just dedicate the rest of my time to really get to know who he really is now. The task wouldn't be that hard if I wasn't so cold and 'alienated' but even that has a solution. A solution that I have been working on for the past week. I am not sure how long it will take me, but one thing I am sure of is that if I don't do anything to help myself, I will find myself so far from everyone I really care about. Before the gaps get larger, I have to get myself out there and gather materials in order for me to build my bridges - firm and long-lasting bridges.

My Life

Things are definitely working out for the best, whatever that best is. It's surprising how events have a way of going around and coming back. For now there is nothing to complain about except for a lot of school work, but there will be time for that. Sometimes I think that school isn't all that necessary. I should be concentrating more on what I am really here for. It is a bit difficult with all the work piled on me for now, but I will find a way to work out both. Until then, Best of luck to myself! Best of luck to you all too in whatever it is you are doing. Just remember that God is always there for you and me even when things seem to go wrong.

Days are numbered

Why is it that people continue to live a life that revolves around one thing? There are many, but there is one that they think is more important. Do they not realize that it will all be gone one day? They won't be here forever, so why bother. Yes, it makes them feel good for a while, but it is for nothing.
It's funny how a second can change things. One decision made by one person affects a whole lot of people than it is thought or intended.
Why is it so hard to live in harmony with nature and also with each other? Sometimes I get sick of everything. Where is the love?