I am so very glad that I got through this semester. It was a different experience but as usual, I adjust. I have spent most of my time reading more books. I have dropped romance novels for a change. Now I'm reading books that have more information towards my major. I realize I should have started a long time ago. It is very interesting!
I am still trying to understand the cruel ways of the world. I always find myself thinking about what people do to me and others that I know. I just don't understand. I want to leave it as is, but how can I be able to live in peace when they will be there? I have learned to ignore people over the past, but even that I can't do anymore. I am thinking that maybe I should go up to them and demand to know where the root of their problem lies. I know they envy me but for what? I would gladly step down form where I am and let them be here to know how it really is and make my existence in a place far away from their prying eyes.
It's the beginning of the holidays and I dread going home. I would feel much better if I didn't have to see certain people but I cannot avoid them. I wonder if I should even go to that reunion. All I want is to spend time with the family, with nothing to spoil it.
In fact, I shouldn't even be thinking about them. They can say whatever they want. The pain of what they say always goes away. They'll never win
