There are a lot of times when I have to either laugh at or scold myself. I was going through my diary book the other day and mein . . . The things I wrote!!! I had to laugh more than necessary, and I also cried. The emotions were so strong!! I can't believe I ever felt such emotions sometimes. They all seem part of another person's life. But, they were mine. I don't feel sorry for any of those times though. In the end, it was what I once wanted the most. Plus, they are what gave meaning to my life. There were some days that I know I will never ever forget, even though I found the necessity to write them down on paper. Maybe one day, someone will read everything about me, but not yet. It's no secret that some have read a few words. Some were too curious to know before I let them have it, so they couldn't read a lot in fear that I would catch them. I do as if I don't know that they've seen a couple pages.
I also realized that the last birthday I spent at home was when I completed 16 years. Not really a big deal. They still get to cook for me, even it isn't my day!!