Present Happenings

Again, it's been a long while since I had the time to post a note. Well, everything is going good for now. I am glad I get to have a break from school and from everything else. However, this summer was not the best of my life. It was so sad and I wish it could have been different. My grandmother has left from amongst us, but there are still some occurences which I have yet to understand. It sure sounds ridiculous when I start thinking of it but I just have to accept the way things are and believe in what I thought was impossible. No matter how nonsensical this sounds, I believe that her spirit is still here among us. I say this because of several unexplained things that happen. One day I hope to understand more of it.
Ever since I came to Columbia, I have been feeling how much I miss her. It was much easier to deal with when I was further away from home. Sometime last two weeks I visited my aunt and I saw her standing behind the grinding stone preparing some 'cacao' for drinking. I didn't expect the hurtful feeling. Then last week I visited again and I just sat to watch the ladies preparing tamales. During the whole time that I was there, I kept thinking that Gran would have had everything organized.
Moving on, you know, I keep thinking about whether I did the right thing or not. To me it was right but I don't know what others may think. Here is the case: I have/had a supposed bf and everything was going just fine for 6 mths. By the end of June, I can say all that changed. By July up till now, I heard nothing from him and that was the time when I needed him most. He doesn't even know what I had to face alone. I tried contacting him a few times, but still nothing. So now I have decided to let the whole thing pass me by. One thing that I know for sure is that I am not accepting any apologies or giving another chance.
That said, I sure do feel much better to have shared a bit about that personal stuff. Will try to access net again some other time and share some more, perhaps about the strange occurences. Until then, God bless.