We seek answers every time and we don't always get them. We always wonder why things are how they are. What can we do to make it better?
I know everyone has questions that they want answers for. But, how do we find these answers? For some of them, we get the answers, but it's always too late. We've always asked questions like, Why did it have to be me? Why did I make it happen? Why didn't I wait a little bit more? Why is he/she behaving like that? Why? Why? Why? It's always why. What about the others? The what's and how's and when's?
There are so much questions that are left unanswered. I wish I knew all the answers to the questions I have. But then again, if I knew the answers, life would feel like an act.
So I guess I'll just wait patiently for the answers to come and I know they won't.
If only there was a way to stop the bad things from happening. A lot of people would be happier. But then, they are the ones who let it happen. But, before they made the decision, they didn't know it would be bad.
I always ask myself why this happened. About 10-11 years ago. Everything was just so sweet, and she was only a baby. Why did it have to be her? What could have been done to avoid it? It happened around October. I used to hear her cry everyday, and I didn't know if she was feeling pain or not. The doctors told us that she would never be able to walk, talk, see, or even hear. So, she was only there, couldn't do anything, not even eat. For years it was like that, then one day, I heard her laugh (a real happy laugh). After all those years! I stood there and looked at her and smiled, with tears in my eyes, because it was so long.
Even though I didn't get to see her growing up, I still miss her. It'll be 3 yrs this November that she passed away, and sometimes I still find it hard to believe.
Sometimes I'd wake up in the middle of the night and I swear I'd either hear her laughing or her cry.
Life is just so cruel sometimes. I guess I'll never understand, I'll only learn from it's cruelty.
4 comments:
girl some questions are just never answered.
and sometimes u make me just wanna sit and be a real girl and cry my guts out, you know that?
we all have to cry. if we keep it inside, it will hurt more. makes me feel better afterwards. you know, it's like when it rains. after the rain, the birds and all animals get happy.
Why do i make u want to cry? I didn't know.(see me).
hey priscie, haven't read it till today. i guess there are somethings in life we just can't forget. just wanted to say that many unexpected things happen in life but the thing though is that there is always something to help us remember them. may she rest in peace.
slim
Hey slim, thanks. I always wonder what it would be like if she was still alive. A part of me went with her. I guess that happens all the time. When we get hurt or when someone goes away, we are never ever the same. but I always keep in mind that something good comes out of everything bad that happens.
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